it's 10.13am. Having a 4hour break in school and i'm rather bored.
I'm missing you right now. so i'm blogging this.
But by the time you see this, it'll probably be night time and you'd be on the phone with me.
LALALA.
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i never really told you how much you meant to me. never did i realise how great an impact you have on me. thank you for being so patient with me. thank you for always being there for me. i would have been missing out if i never met you.
This is project hell week. And its common tests for the next.
I can't wait for all to be over and since i don't have attachment first, i can enjoy the long long long holiday from end of Feb all the way to mid April.
then i'll be offically a Year 3 student. BAH. just great.
This just makes me regret going poly. maybe i should've gone to a private school and finish a diploma in a year. instead of 3 friggin years!
Or maybe... i should've chosen the business route. seems like my friends are doing in-school attachments while i'm facing death. but then again, business would just be like what everyone else is doing.
bahh... dont mind me. i'm mentally stressed.
Dont talk to me. Unless you don't mind a round of complaining. or maybe even crying.
Sometimes school just make you wanna dig a hole in hell and bury yourself. Maybe its just because i've been cutting myself way too much slack for the past few months. I've been cooping myself in isolation, away from the fucking evil world. If only by hugging my baby dog can take all the stress away.
Like why is it so hard?
If only... if only life wasn't at its best at during a period of time. Then it won't be so bad because life had never really been that great anyway. So there's nothing much to look back on. But i think i've only got my ownself to blame for anything or everything that came to me.
But i'm still trying... as always.
because you just don't know how fucking hard it is.
i got INTERACTIVE MEDIA for specialization. my first choice so i'm uber happy.
the rest are all boring to me:
Communications and Networking Integrated Web Systems & Solutions IT Service Management Mobile Internet Solutions
Interactive media might just be the hardest specialization. but i guess its the only one i would have fun with.
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i'm so sad to say i'm gonna have to be sleeping pretty late again for the 3rd night in a row. because i'm in the mist of the Animation project brief, which i'm actually having fun with. and tomorrow night after class it's town with Elieen. Sat morning is training and work at night. Sunday too. BAH.
today's presentation uh.... sucked. worst i've had in years.
i'm feeling rather shagged today. 4 more weeks and i'm gonna party. just gotta get through this term.
damn, i've never hated school this much. i'm sure everyone in my class would agree.
okay im starting to sleep talk now. domain's expiring soon. if only YONG LIANG could be around more. instead of fussing over the open house, I would like to tell him i wanna RENEW. and that i will PAY FOR IT.
went for an interview at International Plaza. was an hour late but i didn't care. was in this conference room with 3 other guys who were also candidates. it seemed to have gone well i guess.
rushed back to school because i left lizhi waiting for 2hours. got nothing much done.
watched I am Legend at The Cathay. nothing fantastic but it's passable.
Labrador Park was next. really relaxing there, couple's fav hangout. but i love the waves.
******* when i think of school tomorrow, i feel like dying. damn.
went dxo today. saw this guy that looks exactly like stanley. even danced like him. me and jin keep asking each other "where did "stanley" go?" when that guy was out of sight.
a fight broke out between some mats. and it took forever to break them up. fuck can. i'm never going DXO again. there were tons of cops outside when we left.
had only 3glasses. even though it was free flow. i know my limits okay :) WH was really nice to drive down from Changi to fetch us. went to Punggol Nasi Lemak for thirst quenching. and then it was home at 4.30am.
ps. i still feel really bad about the parking fine :(
finally changed me number! wanted to go amk hub's starhub but i remembered the customer service there sucked. so went to toa payoh to find felix.
i had a hard time choosing the numbers. and alot of the numbers i saw were like _ _ _44_4. i went eeeeeee. SI SI SI. (hokkien for die die die) and felix was like "wah lau! the more you shd take" lizhi said he didn't know i was so superstitious.
but i'm sure everyone has a certain amount of superstition in them right? :)
anyway, i chose the best number there was. but the problem is i can't remember it! no matter how easy it is.
well, if i haven't texted you my hawt new number, DO TELL ME ARIGHT? :))
if you want me to hang our dirty linen out in public, by all means i will.
my mom and you quarreled through sms one day. you cursed her, she cursed you. my dad called your dad about the 250$ you owed and you got pissed. next you tell me you want nothing to do with me because of my fucked up family.
i told you our relationship has fucking nothing to do with my family. but you fucking insisted you want the "dream" parents-in-law in future. if not, you rather not continue with me.
i smsed you for a week with NO FUCKING REPLY. i called you everyday with NO FUCKING ANSWER. i smsed a thousand "I love you"s and "I miss you terribly"s. but you fucking dont bother!
so i had no choice but to come down on a wednesday. and cried and hugged you, asking you to try work things out instead of just leaving. but you tell me to leave you alone, to let you think. till how long? i asked. you said you dont know.
you hug me, kiss me. but you tell me we're just friends. yet you tell me if i dare go out with my guy friend for supper, i can dont talk to you ever again.
i came down on the following thursday. cried and plead with you to work things out for the whole fucking day. but you tell me the same thing. you dont want to fucking work it out.
i tried again and came down on friday. you still fucking said you dont know whether you wanna try.
you've been having fun all along, smsing another girl. her name in your phonebook even had a :) beside her name. while mine was just a "kim 2"
you can sms other girls while you tell me that i cant sms other guys? how fucking selfish can you get?
you want me to hang on to you while you had your fun. then you come back to me.
since you want me to hang dry the dirty linen. i will do it.
i've had enough of you dumping me. time and again. leaving me so damn fucking hurt. and come back once you've had enough fun.
I am not your last resort. I am not to be taken for granted by you. I have been there for you every step when you're down. when you got cheated by denny. when you went broke.
I never fucking leave you when you're sad. I dont even say break up because i rather we work things out like normal people.
but you had to push me to my limits. you just had to see how far i will tolerate this.
i will leave you behind. like how you left me.
because you left me no choice. yes i'll miss. yes i'll cry. but i think it's the best for you. and me.
Please dont try to contact me. dont try to find out my new number because my friends will never give it to you. dont try to send me offline messages because i made damn sure i wont receive them. dont appear in my life again.
because after 3 weeks of agony, i've finally stood up to myself. i cannot let a guy mistreat me like that.
you had me begging you. you had me crying the shitz for you.
you had me at "hello" you lost me at "leave me alone"
i'm sorry but this girl has learnt not to be a pushover.
Happy New Year! Feels damn great for it to be 2008! Last night was superb, met up with cass, haikel, stan, yz and kenneth. We were so high, we knocked over drinks TWICE. and both times onto 2 N95s!
haikel was the first goner at 1.30am! right after Stan his drinking partner arrived.
stupid stan and his last minute poses which always blurrs the picture.
there are tons more pictures on this girl's n95. but i can only post it once i've received it!
12am sucked because all lines didnt work! I didn't reach yz until about 1am. I received new year smses at freaking 3am! Luckily, the kiasu me met cass earlier than supposed because i was afraid we wont be able to contact when its nearing 12.
I had a damn Happy New Year with the clique. got home at 6am as a really happy girl. i dont know why we have so much fun whenever we're together. Love you guys. :)
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stupid stan and his last minute poses which always blurrs the picture.
