| Thursday, August 30, 2007 |
| When theres no turning back |
we talked last night.
but things are still a little rocky.
it will never be the same again.
i can't get it out of my head.
i thought i could always trust you with my secrets.
someone whom i can depend on.
but i cannot take you bitching everything about me behind my back.
even my best friend doesn't do that.
why should my boyfriend?
you said you don't like my friends.
how does that make cassie feel?
you complained to other people that i drag you around to chauffeur my friends.
when you ownself volunteered to drive us.
i don't want to sit in your car anymore.
i'd rather walk or take a bus.
i don't want you to volunteer to pick cass or haikel or anyone else ever.
even till now, your smses to me are not the ones you type yourself.
you ask people to reply for you.
i can't even believe your smses now.
how do you fix something that used to be so perfect?
how do you forgive when you've been stabbed a million times?
i've been trying...
but it's so hard... |
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| Wednesday, August 29, 2007 |
| A little on the Brighter side :) |
sunkissed.
fatty day.
with KFC and Andersen's 16% fatty Macademia Nut Ice Cream.
GAH! i feel sick.
went Spageddies for the followup interview before we're offically in the company.
Everyone looked really cold.
except for a familiar face, someone we call Simpson (nickname from his tooth)whom we met from drinking 2weeks ago with Yz.
He wanted to go for a smoke break with us.
but nah.
EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!
I RULE! |
| posted by kimmiee @ 10:47 PM |
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| Tuesday, August 28, 2007 |
| Sigh |
even if you eventually realised your mistake,
and be willing to start and change all over agian.
i can't.
i cannot forgive you for what you did.
not first time. but its the second time.
i will not care and shower love to someone who doesn't care for me.
you can tell me you're "deciding what you want".
but i have decided what i want.
whatever you decided has become powerless.
thank goodness for my bestfriend, cassie. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 11:03 PM |
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| Monday, August 27, 2007 |
| Why |
i stood at the window crying.
it's been over 20 hours non stop.
but the tears kept coming.
i wonder how can people cry until theres no tears left.
coz i seem to have plenty.
Maths exam tomorrow.
and i'm not confident at all.
because i cannot concentrate.
all of a sudden i'll just burst into tears.
it's been a whole day
i want to get away from all this heartache.
i wanted to jump.
standing at the window,
i took one loud scream.
which led my left leg to rise.
but i knew better.
and put that foot down.
what has caused me to be like this?
i've never been so depressed.
i've never been so hurt in my entire life.
can i die from heartbreak?
because it seems to be suffocating me.
i can't breathe....
baby, why does it have to be like this?
why do you not have a mind of your own?
today is 30month.
and i feel like killing myself
i seriously do.
which method is better?
jumping or slashing? |
| posted by kimmiee @ 2:05 AM |
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| Sunday, August 26, 2007 |
| Hit me hard with it please |
i made a bad mistake.
in going back to you 5 months ago.
now i know your true colours.
and im never going back.
even if you kill me.
never gonna be your punching bag.
never gonna be your listening ear.
never gonna ever be there for you.
it's abit too late.
considering 30months of being together.
i must have been a huge sucker.
i'm sorry to those whom i've troubled yesterday night.
my cousin and jennifer who helped to call.
jan's friend whom we did not know went in to find daniel.
yong liang who patiently helped me do countless movie ticket refunds with no complains.
and you also paid first for the tickets on my behalf.
haikel who cabbed us from town to amk hub. and then back home.
and my dearest casselyn, who witnessed your cruelty.
just because i was so afraid of letting you go.
i did everything i could.
now i know what i should've done.
you've been talking bout me behind my back.
backstabbing your own girlfriend.
man i'm stupid to believe you.
Everyone knows how much i loved you.
Everyone could see.
Everyone says i'm weak, for believing you.
and i'm just too stubborn.
don't call me. dont sms me. EVER.
i don't ever want to talk to you ever again.
i'm washing my hands off you. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 8:00 PM |
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| Tuesday, August 21, 2007 |
| Downhill |
everything about work is going wrong...
jian li never cries. but today she did.
the stupid aunty has gone too far.
if only noor was still the supervisor of msq andersens...
i would hate to quit because of management problems.
i can't leave jian li in the lurge.
i just feel too bad to quit..
met elieen the andersnes ex-colleague.
had my virgin meal at Billy Bombers.
and it was alright.
the $12 voucher didn't make a difference
because it was expensive as it was.
went over to Andersens to see jian li.
just to find out she's been crying.
and the other aunty forbade anyone to talk.
seeing the fulltimers in such conditions,
i feel like crying.
because none of them deserve such bastard people to bully them.
so i decided to stay.
so that they wont have to work full shifts.
if the stupid aunties fuck me, i will fuck them back.
for i have nothing to lose.
i dont care if they cut 40cents per hour for my bad attitude.
i have another job anyway.
Once again, i advise everyone not to ever apply to work there.
not even if you're too poor to function.
i rather you work macdonalds. seriously.
i cant even eat with jian li during her break.
because the stupid aunty will scream at her.
its a jailhouse.
even the customer service located infront of us can say that the staff work like maids.
sigh.
bestie's birthday chalet tomorrow.
shall unwhine with the Vodka Absolute that baby's bringing. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 12:19 AM |
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| Monday, August 20, 2007 |
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Baby if you strip, you can get a tip
'Cause I like you just the way you are
I don't need the G's or the car keys
Boy I like you just the way you are
Let me see ya strip, you can get a tip
'Cause I like you just the way you are |
| posted by kimmiee @ 2:56 AM |
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| Sunday, August 19, 2007 |
| Fuck Andersens |
My first day with the new Stupid Supervisor.
And i'm all ready to lodge a complain.
because she's such a fucktard!
usually on Fridays and Saturdays, at Ansdersens, we close the dine-in at 10pm.
and the takeaway at 10.30pm.
and by the time we wash up the dishes and cleaned everything,
its close to 11.30pm, and i would bus a normal bus home.
but today, i had to spend fucking $3.00 to take a night rider.
it wasnt that i didnt finish my part on time.
rafiz, wendy and i were assigned to the dine-in area. and i washed everything by 11.30pm
so that i wont miss my bus 70 back
but for the takeaway. i dont know what fuck reason they have, but they were selling to customers till 11.20pm!
and its takes bloody 30-45mins to clean up everything!
and when i asked the fucktard supervisor whether i can go off coz im rushing to catch a bus.
she said "wah, you can go off, then everyone else can drop their stuff and go off also LAH!"
wtf bitch. i did my part. its not like i left everything there and want to go off.
but its not my fault if she wants to extend the takeaway hours out of her own accord!
if she closed the takeaway at 10.30pm as supposed to, she'll be done the same time as me!
she said "NO all leave together"
and so i just stood there while time passed by.
and at 11.50, i couldnt take it so i went off, rafiz went off too.
he was too fucking pissed off.
closing at 10.30 and closing at 11.20 is an HOUR AWAY!
I DO NOT WORK MY ASS OFF OVERTIME JUST TO LET IT GET EATEN UP BY THE NIGHT RIDER!!!!
$5.60 - $3.00 = $2.60
worse than MAC OK YOU RETARD!
WHY DO I HAVE TO SPEND 3.00 TO GET HOME WHEN I CAN PAY NORMAL BUS FARES!
ITS FUCKING UNNECESSARY!
JUST BECAUSE YOU WANT TO EXTEND THE TAKEAWAY, YOU WANT TO DRAG EVERYONE INTO THE FUCKING HOLE!!!!!!!?????????
i told my mom about it.
and she is pissed like hell.
and i'm not gonna let this matter rest.
i'm gonna complain to the management.
and so will my mom.
if they want me to work overtime until i miss my bus then fine. i will.
but at least sponsor the fucking cab!
Andersens is too stingy for that!
I'm so fucking pissed off already.
I advise everyone not to ever apply for a job there.
everyone is quitting.
1. jessica just quit.
2. anwar found another job and will quit in a month.
3. rafiz said that today will be his last day.
4. fahanna said that she's ending school soon so she will be finding a better job.
5. lizhi has silently quitted.
6. alan is looking for backup first before quitting
7. lynette said she was quitting soon?
8. ME!
today might jolly well be my last day too.
imagine the lost of 8 part-timers.
they only have 4 full-timers.
HAHA to you. All are quitting because of the new aunty supervisor.
BAH.
i hate her. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 12:51 AM |
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| Saturday, August 11, 2007 |
| Doubt It |
2weeks.
One final probation.
thats all i'm gonna give it.
but i have a pretty good feeling you'll fuck this one up like you did for the whole 2 years.
because you have the temper of 10people combined
and an ego the size of Europe.
but we'll see how you get this one through. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 1:01 AM |
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| Thursday, August 9, 2007 |
| Smile;foolishly |
Take things easier.
that's what i've come to learn.
and everything will fall nicely in place.
at least, it's almost normal.
but time heals all wounds, and this is no exception.
slowly i'll understand, and the more i'll love.
Today was tiring, travelling round the little red dot in various cars.
we switched like a million cars today.
the Fiat Punto Grande 3 times, brand new Fiat Idea, and the lousy Chevolet Optra.
But i had fun.
And who wants to bet that i can find $3 carwash?
I'm dreading work tomorrow.
But i'll manage. all because of the double pay.
i really see no sacrifice to work on National Day.
who celebrates National Day anyway?
it's just an excuse not to go school/work,
for cinemas to charge the maximum
and the Cabbies to earn a whole day of surcharge.
On a sleepier note,
I miss my bed.
lovesssss<3 |
| posted by kimmiee @ 12:07 AM |
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| Tuesday, August 7, 2007 |
| When Love Meets Hell |
I've opened my heart, ready to let go. it's sooner or later, history repeats. I've accepted the fact and it doesn't bring me anymore tears. you're obviously on a different page. fun is all you think about now; the carefree life with no boundaries. but one day when you decide to take a peek into the past, you and i both know the regrets that will overcome you. thy heart beats faster when it sees you, and will beat slower with you further away. but thy heart still lives on, with no regrets.
because the best was done to make it work. everything that was suppose to be given was given. thy tries the best to be there for you,loving you for the special way you are, but you don't see enough. you're blinded by the world around you. the people luring you away. to try with you is to get hurt, wounded, and have your heart ripped out and hung for all to see.
why is it so hard? everyday i ask myself. was it really me? or was it you all along? are you truly in love? or am i just hoping too much?
it will scar me forever; the importance of my existence in your life. memory loss would be perfect right now. how do i get one anyways?
i want to say i love you deep deep. but those precious words are no different from rubbish to you. energy is something i lack right now. because i'm tired. i'm tired of trying to make it work. i'm tired of getting hurt over the things you say. because you never took those crude words back. and i'm no tough guy to handle this all alone.
i'm such a failure in love.
maybe god will be on my side the next time love comes along. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 1:21 PM |
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| Monday, August 6, 2007 |
| Can i bite your boobs? |
one day an old man was walking down the street and he saw a beautiful woman with the most wonderful pair of boobies. So he went up to her and asked...
man: can i bite ur boobs for $100
woman: no way! are u out of your mind!?
man: how about $1000 ?
woman: go away! you crazy!
man: $5000..it's $5000!
woman: jus scram before i call the police!
man: okok..last deal..$10000!
the woman thinks awhile and decide that she'll agree
woman: ok deal, let's go to the back alley behind the building
so at the back alley, the woman took off her blouse and the man was fasinated at the sight before him. He fondled, squeezed, lick n sucked her boobies but did not bite them. So the woman got impatient and exclaimed.
woman: hey! when are u going to bite
man: nah, i wouldn't do it. it's too expensive. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 1:57 PM |
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| Sunday, August 5, 2007 |
| Cruel World |
I'm so sick i feel like dying.
the flu bug got me once again.
every swallow is pain.
which is better for a sore throat?
warm or cold water?
no one cares.
not even the boyfriend who thinks his phony friends are more important than his girlfriend. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 5:25 PM |
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| Saturday, August 4, 2007 |
| You broke my heart time and again, and you fuck care about it |
it's proven again how important i am to you.
people pretend to be you and smsed me rubbish with your phone.
the stupid idiot friend of yours who rejects my calls.
the fucker with no respect
the people whom you call friends.
the same guy who "joked" with me months back and caused us to break up for 3 months.
i got pretty upset and cried, because i was afraid he was doing the same thing again.
but you said i was being ridiculous for crying.
and i said other people don't do this to their girlfriends when they are upset.
instead of comforting me, you slammed and offed your phone on me.
your phony friend won me i guess.
what he thinks of you was obviously more important than your girlfriend.
you meant the world for me to give you an all-i-have Birthday Surprise.
my entire savings of $450 was spent on your birthday so as to make it an unforgettable one.
and to also let you know how special you are to me.
i was no rich person.
but the $250 BBQ i got for you, i never got the $10 each was suppose to pay.
Why is that?
because i was too occupied with your ear accident!
you said you'd ask them for the money.
but its been a month.
and you never gave a fuck.
i know its not your money.
and you dont feel the pain.
if you dont help me get the money back its not your problem.
but i survived on instant mee everyday because of you.
i reject friend outings because im too poor now.
all because of who?
ALL BECAUSE OF YOU.
you don't return my calls when you see my miss calls.
you wait for me to call again.
and i cannot get pissed because then you will be pissed
and then you will hang up on me
you shove me to the ground.
you scream at me.
you slam the phone on me.
you tell me what have i done that is so wrong to deserve all these from you? |
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| Thursday, August 2, 2007 |
| A week old post |
okok.
i'm back.
and this will be a outdated post i believe.
Last Saturday
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Joreen's birthday.
there was about 10 of us.
we brought her to Build-A-Bear at Suntec City.
the guys took a walk round the shop and went to look at electronics instead.
so it was just us girls with the bears. 
 this is a really cute little bear closet. but it costs 450SGD! this whole process took like an hour.
first we got the cute looking army print shirt
and for the little cargo pants!
tada!
 there's a box in the inside of the bear, which when you press, you can feel a little heartbeat. so cool can! after that, we head down to EskiBar at Boat Quay. daniel had the car so we fetched a few of us down while the rest took a cab. and the entire journey to the bar was jammy can! it really sucks to drive on a day where the NDP preview  and then we reached.
 the drinks were fucking expensive! ZOMFG! $188 for a bottle of chivas and free 4 mixers! ^&%$#@!* and the service sucked. we had to ask for 15mins for our green tea mixer. and the bar is so damn small! how busy can they get with so limited customers.  us in the subzero room. where it smells like fish.  he finally settled down to take a pic with me. that silly boy.
 sandy darling and m   
the experience was nice.
but its painful for the pocket.
after we finished up the drinks
well zhong xian poured most of the precious chivas to yao hong when we were fetching lizhi to the mrt.
we then went to Lao Pa Sat for some munchies.
yao hong was pretty much gone by then.
sigh. it was a pity he couldnt take it and had to go home.
coz we were gonna catch Disturba after munchies.
so daniel with his trusty car drove him back.
adrian and sandy followed.
from town all the way back to Bukit Panjang.
then all the way back to town again to catch the Disturba movie.
horrifying i tell you.
the movie is super sadistic and bone chilling.
by then, it was 4plus in the morning.
daniel being oh-so-kind he fetched every single one of us home.
imagine this.
one small Fiat Punto.
7 human beings.
yes yes, we were simply ingenious to fit everyone in.
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baby, i never really got to thank you for being so selfless that night.
you could've easily rejected sending everyone home.
but you were more than willing to get everyone to their doorstep.
from town, to 3 locations in bedok, to woodlands, and to serangoon.
$20 worth of petrol and 2 hours spent sending everyone back.
and you never did complain.
i love you much much my silly boy :) |
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