| Tuesday, February 27, 2007 |
| The biggest blow in history |
for the first time.
i cannot think of what to blog.
ive just screwed up the last paper
even before i sat for it.
i've screwed up my mental stability.
i've screwed up someone else's mental stability.
and i will never forgive myself for it.
but i have thought about it long and hard.
and i cannot go on.
it will take me a very very long time to be normal again.
i've been a murderer.
and i really cannot forgive myself for it.
why does everything bad has to happen to me.
i know its my fault from the beginning.
just one mistake has led to a whole lot of heartache.
you can think of me however you like.
but i've thought it though and hard.
it would be more unfair if i stayed.
my heart is not completely there.
i don't think i should commit when im not ready.
i cannot save myself.
and no one else can.
P.S. i have to see the doctor again tomorrow. I don't understand how can i be sick for 3 weeks. |
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| Sunday, February 25, 2007 |
| Im beat |
i asked for time and space.
but im not getting any.
i'm so tired and worn out.
and no one can help me |
| posted by kimmiee @ 4:17 PM |
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| NOT AGAIN |
i am the worst drinker on earth, i can declare.
i got pissed drunk again!
worse of all, i mixed my antibotics with the alcohol.
not technically mix but it got mixed when i drank.
will have reaction, and it did.
no wonder i couldnt get up for the last hour.
prayed for baby to come quick to take me home.
was only able to sit up when he came.
the poor boyfriend took MC from duty because he knew something like that will happen to me.
gonna go sleep now before i die.
will blog more about it tomorrow when i got the pics.
P.S. sorry manda! for being a mess tonight. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 2:36 AM |
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| Thursday, February 22, 2007 |
| freelala |
VB exam today was a killer.
well it wasn't really hard.
but it was tough taking the paper in a headache.
but thank goodness no more fever.
the antibotics really saved my life.
one down! 2 more to go :) |
| posted by kimmiee @ 8:51 PM |
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| Wednesday, February 21, 2007 |
| I want to be well :'( |
i'm so sad right now.
someone must be cursing me.
finally went to the doc after more than a week.
was forced by my parents.
the doc took my temperature 3 times (he thought the thermometor was spoilt)
and the lowest reading was 38.5,
highest was 38.7
i couldn't believe my eyes.
I HAVE A DAMN EXAM TOMORROW CAN!
the total bill came up to a whooping 47 bucks.
bang balls.
i hope i can pass the exam tomorrow.
:'(
give me hug, somebody.
*cries buckets of tears*
P.S. i was sucking this sore throat sweet the doc gave. and it made my tongue numb! |
| posted by kimmiee @ 9:46 PM |
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| Sunday, February 18, 2007 |
| SIGH |
 :( it was 37.7C yesterday night. tonight its still the same. its funny how form the moment i wake up to 6pm, i'm SUPER FINE. well, i should be thankful i had a mircle recovery for the first half of the day. if not i wouldnt have been able to enjoy the day out.  the yummy bird's nest  the many angbaos!!! heh heh heh ;) one super zai uncle gave me $50 bucks. super made my day. :D i'm running out of paracetamol tabs. does the doctor open during CNY? |
| posted by kimmiee @ 7:59 PM |
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| Saturday, February 17, 2007 |
| Bad Start |
I feel so shitty.
i woke up with a slight fever, headache, little flu, aches all over., and a fat-ass ulcer.
thats the worse thing that can ever happen!
and its CNY eve!
no amount of paracetamol can help me!
i've been taking so much of it i lost count.
damn it.
i have no appetite.
drank a glass of milk this morning to get down the pills
and that was it.
i dont want to see the doctor.
never liked doctors.
all they give is more and more paracetamol.
i just want a mircle recovery.
i want my teddy bear. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 11:47 AM |
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| Friday, February 16, 2007 |
| UberBurger died |
Read the news yesterday that UberBurger closed down.
:(
it just twitches my heart. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 10:04 AM |
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| Thursday, February 15, 2007 |
| :)) |
they're really really fun peeps!
known eileen for a couple of days only.
but it feels as if we know each other for 10 years!!!
:)
caught Epic Movie after work.
i've been on a movie marathon man!
it was so lame but funny.
baby sent his ring for repair.
maybe we could take a pic of both after we get it back.
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baby, i know i've been really grumpy and maybe cold towards you.
though you said you didnt realised any of this
thanks for the patience
thanks for the understanding and love.
you remember every single details.
what i liked and disliked.
what more can i really ask for.
:) |
| posted by kimmiee @ 10:17 PM |
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| My Valentine |
changed plans last minute.
but it was fun anyways
:)
had sakae sushi for dinner.
bloody filling.
wanted to go to the night safari.
but it was too late already.
so went town to catch Just Follow Law.
it's nice :)
fann wong is pretty cute in that movie.
baby bought me 2 blouses from espirit and u2.
:)
i looooove the blouses.
baby has great taste :D
and he also got me my favorite red earth eyeliner!
so touched you remember everything.
you even got the colour right
:))
I LOOOVED this Valentine's day.
it's even better than my birthdays.
aboslutely.
P.S. i think something's really wrong with me. i've been having headaches and dizzy spells fot 3 days already! damn it. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 12:48 AM |
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| Wednesday, February 14, 2007 |
| Valentine's |
This valentine's day, would be like every other valentine's day.
hearts will be broken
hearts will merge.
some will get engaged
some will part.
some won't enjoy it
some will find this day the best day of their lifes.
some will just sit at home like it's any other day.
some will get depressed and drink the night away.
most will celebrate their anniversaries.
everyone will have their own little drama.
a little story to keep for life. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 1:20 AM |
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| Tuesday, February 13, 2007 |
| Not right |
what do you do when your past still haunts you
when you're left without an answer
leaving you feeling all mixed up inside
not knowing what you should or should not do
life just doesn't feel right.
life's not meant to be that way.
no matter what decision time brings,
there will be hurt
i've been wishing for an answer, a sign.
and i'm still waiting.. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 1:12 PM |
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| Dixie Chicks - Not ready to make nice |
Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting
I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price, and i'll keep paying
I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should
I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it
I made my bed, and I sleep like a baby,
With no regrets and I don't mind saying,
It's a sad sad story
That a mother will teach her daughter
that she ought to hate a perfect stranger.
And how in the world
Can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Saying that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over
I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should
I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should
Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting |
| posted by kimmiee @ 12:44 AM |
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| Monday, February 12, 2007 |
| Silly dog |
little niki farted with a little sound chased his tail, and went crazy running around.
its cute that for 9 years, he doesn't think farting is normal and he hates it.
(: |
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| Sunday, February 11, 2007 |
| Yong's Prize :) |
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| posted by kimmiee @ 4:20 PM |
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| Day at work |
THIS ALWAYS happens and im so sick of it!
just in one day of working, the nail polish became like this!!!
now its looks fugly.
cant stand it.
i dont care i want office job already!!!
theres this new malay girl at work. well not so new.
shes there for about a month but just never got the chance to work with her.
she is FUCKING LAZY.
while everyone is rushing orders and attending to customers.
she is FUCKING washing her hands over and over again like it was FUCKING dirty.
she was suppose to come at 2pm
but came at 3pm instead.
from 3 to 4pm, when i end work.
i NEVER see her once doing dine-in.
she was inside the kitchen washing dunno what FUCK.
first time working with her and i cannot stand it already.
i know i will blow up at her the next time i work with her.
dammit man.
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took my first pic with jian li.
she stuffs me silly (: |
| posted by kimmiee @ 3:57 PM |
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| Saturday, February 10, 2007 |
| I DESPISEEEEEEEEEEEEEE |
I absolutely despise guys who depend on girls.
especially for PROJECTS.
no backbone. no dignity.
this kind of guys should bang wall and DIE. |
| posted by kimmiee @ 2:41 PM |
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| Flashback of the Terrifying Os. |
the O level results will be out today.
i remember when i had my turn last year.
i was so nervous i thought i was gonna faint.
i seriously thought i'd flunk the Olevels.
after the last paper on 22 nov,
i didn't even wanna think about which course i go to.
or what's gonna happen to me.
teachers were telling me how much i wouldnt make it through.
i didn't like those boring lessons and was always sleeping in class.
i didnt even bother to hide my eyes.
i just slept there openly.
and i was sitting in the second row!
most teachers let me continue sleeping.
but their mouths never shut when they're back in the staff room.
my Secondary 4 days were sort of hell.
i lost the mood in mugging hard for exams that year.
almost all teachers thought i was a goner in the Olevels.
you know how it feels when they say that
even before you sat for the first paper.
the day the results came out...
i took it easy in the morning.
daniel came over to accompany me.
i wore my school uniform for the first time in months.
it felt weird.
we had macs for lunch before going to school.
i was in a mess.
panicking all over.
but daniel was confident.
daniel: i'm sure you'll get a 17.
me: like real, if i get 20 i'll be glad already, not talking about 17.
daniel: if you get 17 you owe me a Seoul Garden treat!
me: sure sure, wait long long because that'll never happen
it was a long long long walk to school.
they made us sit in a straight line.
and i was reminded of the school days once more.
when it was finally my turn.
mrs koh was smiling at me when she handed my my results.
but she hadnt seen my results yet.
it was sealed. only for me to open.
i was shivering.
opened it
and i got confused.
because all i see is the subject and the grade.
i passed it to daniel to count it for me.
i was too scared of what i might see.
then daniel said 17.
i was like, sure anot count properly lah.
i took it and counted.
yes yes YES! it was 17 after all.
i actually passed the Olevel!
i can go poly!
that was all i cared.
called mummy.
and she couldn't believe it
and asked me to bring that slip back now.
she was so happy for days.
that was my experience on Result Day.
looking back, i'm glad i took the Olevels instead of giving up like i almost did.
everyone has to go through that at a point in life.
i'm glad i faced it and and got through it.
:)) |
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| Friday, February 9, 2007 |
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caught the movie Happy Birthday earlier this evening.
it's super touching and sad. |
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| Thursday, February 8, 2007 |
| I can't explain this feeling |
i live everything thinking.
what might have been and what might have not.
i'm sure everyone wished they're able to turn back time at one point of their life.
or to freeze time at that exact time and place.
i don't know why but i feel shitty all of a sudden.
someone please talk more sense into me.
i guess sometimes i think too much i go crazy.
grr.
pro help needed. immed. |
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| Wednesday, February 7, 2007 |
| One more burden off me |
it's finally done!
the stupid storyboard.
woke up at 1pm.
slacked while waiting for jj to come.
started at 3.00pm.
it was near 6 when me and jj finished this at the clubhouse.
walked over to hougang point with the big-ass mounting board and bought dinner for the whole family.
went home.
dumped the stuff, changed and got out.
met baby for dinner (:
i bought this new shade of nail polish and i hope it works for me :X
too light and my nails look sick.
too dark and my nails look too ah-ma-ish.
*****
i came home around 10, switched on the teebee and saw that cute guy in The Arena.
he looks like Ryan Cabrera can!
his EYES are just wonderful
i wonder how can you concentrate on debating with a guy like that.
As sua ku as i am, its the first time i heard of a United World College.
so i went to look it up in google.
they actually have a branch in Singapore!
but oh my fucking god
It's $7000 plus PER TERM.
and the Registration Fee is $2100!!!
WTF???
2000 bucks for registration!?
so in total = 2000(regist) + 7000(term) + 6885(deposit)
you do the math.
is this school that great?
i think it only teaches up to Grade 12. which is equivalent to Secondary 4? or JC at most?
a normal decent secondary school would cost us $15 a month and say, $90 per half year.
compare $7000 and $90!!!
this is madness. |
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| My Sad Life |
I can drop dead right now.
i rushed the drawings till 5am.
can cry. |
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| Tuesday, February 6, 2007 |
| I'm so packed, i'm mad |
Alas!
i have found a teeny tiny bit of time to blog before i get back to my work.
yesyes. i'm rushing the last and final project of the year. dumb Graphic Design. i can't draw for nuts and now im forced to produce the best i can.
i hope me and jj can get the final storyboard done by tomorrow
or i'll scream my head off. DE common test is on thurs and i haven't touched one bit of it yet!
1st year already so stressed and jam-packed
with projects and exams. 2nd year must be all hell and madness. grr.
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one big bum |
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| Monday, February 5, 2007 |
| Current Craze: Evolution - Jeffrey Michael |
My heart is confused.
My heart is sad.
There is so much i want to say but i know i can't.
There is so much i want to do but i know i musn't.
I don't know what i'm doing anymore.
Why does things have to become this way?
once again, i'm choked.
I need someone to talk to.
Where are you, my friends.... |
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| Sunday, February 4, 2007 |
| Convo between me and supervisor |
Noor: how come i never see your that boyfriend anymore?
Me: (blurr and stunned)
Noor: don't tell me you have so MANY boyfriends you forgot which!
Me: (wondering who he refering to) er. is it the golden hair one?
Noor: The one who always come eat hot waffles with you.
Me: Oh that. No lah. We broke up quite a while back.
Noor: SERIOUS???
Me: Yeah, he dumped me.
Noor: You sure anot, nowadays its a trend for women to dump men.
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He has no idea how EVIL his banana species can be to women. |
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| Friday, February 2, 2007 |
| i'm pissed, dont mind me |
HOW CAN YOU EXPECT ME TO NOT BE ANGRY WHEN I KNOW WHO WAS THE ONE WHO HACKED MY ACCOUNTS.
YOU EXPECT ME TO SAY THANK YOU FOR HACKING MY ACCOUNT IN THE FIRST PLACE AND THANKS AGAIN FOR GIVING MY MSN BACK TO ME???
FUCKING SHHHHIT CAN!
YOU EXPECT ME TO PITY YOU FOR THE STATE YOU'RE IN?
YOU EXPECT ME TO DUMP EVERYTHING AND GO BACK TO YOU JUST BECAUSE YOU WANT ME TO?
YOU PAY FOR YOUR OWN MISTAKES.
NOT MEEEEEEEE.
FUCKING GET THAT INTO YOUR BRAIN.
AND STOP BLAMING ME FOR US BREAKING UP.
FOR THE MOTHERFUCKING 1000TH TIME.
YOU FUCKING DUMPED ME YOU SHIAT!!!
NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRIED TO GET YOU BACK,
YOU FUCKING DUMPED ME.
THE WHOLE WORLD CAN SEE HOW FUCKING SAD I WAS IN KIMBERLYHO.COM.
YOU CAN GO AROUND THE WORLD TELLING THE WORLD HOW BAD I AM FOR FINDING SOMEONE NEW.
WELL TOO BAD FOR YOU CAN!
TOO BAD IF YOU DIDNT KNOW WHAT YOU WERE LETTING GO OFF.
IT ONLY COMES AROUND ONCE.
IF YOU MISSED IT THEN JUST TOO BAD.
YOU SCREWED IT UP.
AFTER ALL THAT SHIAT YOU PUT ME THROUGH
IT'S TIME I SAY STOP
LEAVE ME ALONE ONCE AND FOR ALL! |
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| Thursday, February 1, 2007 |
| The 1ST Reminder |
I got my first warning letter.
dang.
stupid bald lecturer in Graphic Design.
i was merely late for class and he marked me absent 3 times in a row.
grr.
now my parents are thinking my whole diploma is at stake.
hurhur.
i know i just get lazy at times.
8am Monday classes are a bore.
DESIGN class somemore!
how to be creative early in the morning!!!
people who planned the time table have no brains.
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Lets meet Bajoo!
The dumb storyboard draft
a jj.kim production. Bajoo the Beijing Opera Singer |
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